3 posts tagged “life”
...that I'm not dead and I'm still alive. Wow who knew that I'd go for two months without touching this blog of mine. I am sure no one is even going to read this since I have a whole like 4 friends, but oh well. You'll all be happy to know that I only have one semester left at GCC. Then it's off to ASU West. YAY! haha. Sarcasm is great isn't it?
I honestly don't have much going on right now. I just finished up with my business statistics class. I think I made it out with an 'A' but grades haven't been posted yet, so we'll see. That was not a fun class. I don't want to be a statistician, that's one thing I learned from class.
Deidre and I go on vacation in about two weeks. I'm excited. We'll be traveling through New York, Ohio and Michigan. Should be a good time. I'll definitely take pictures and post 'em up! Well that's it for this update. I swear I'll come back soon... seriously.
I just need to rant. I don't feel that life sucks... well at least not to the point of saying mine is worse than anybody elses. Of course life isn't fair, but it's that way to basically everyone. I don't need to rant so anyone feels sorry for me. I am not even feeling sorry for myself, and I try to not do so. I just need to rant to blow off steam. Nothing more. Nothing less. The housing market is totally overpriced right now and it is getting better, but I want the bubble to just pop. No more of this slowly deflating. I want a house and I refuse to pay these insanely inflated prices. I want a new job. I don't want to handle money every freaking day. In fact I'd be happy if I never had to handle it again. I really and truly want to work for USAA... their core values are everything that I look for in a company. Not to mention their benefits are world-class. Unfortunately I am in school still and their part time jobs aren't very accomodating to full-time students. Oh well. It'll most likely have to wait until I graduate.
I'm supposed to be out with my friends Adam and Chance and of course my beautiful wife. She's instead in bed. Tired... Sick... I don't know. All I know is instead I am bored at home knowing I should be doing homework but just not having the emotional capacity to do so right now. I could go without her, but it's just not the same. Well I should clarify. When I make plans without her it's ok... I mean I miss her and am glad to see her when I get done hanging out with the boys or whatever, but when I am supposed to be out with her and she can't go it just makes me not want to go. Pathetic. I know. But who cares... I am in love and I want to be here to take care of my wife. I just wish that I didn't have to. I wish I was out hanging out right now. Oh well. Just a few hours and I'll be asleep and I won't have to worry about it. Then of course I have to work tomorrow so that just ruins things even more. Gah. Can't I get a break?
Well I'm done for now. I've blown off sufficient steam to let this engine run for a while longer. I'll be back soon with a "why the world sucks" rant. Maybe in a few days. Until then.
Somewhere deep inside for love you'd die
a sleeping giant lies for love you'd live
a tale to come and for her love you'd gladly give
a test to try your life to her and all she wants
but you can't say goodbye does it mean something for once?
it's time to be it's all I've ever wanted
just strong enough but it's something I can't live
to make it one more day she's gone maybe forever
time to make up but it's never quite the end
your mind enough
so you can stand and say
it's all I've ever wanted another day another one
but it's something I can't have to want so still I live
it's gone maybe forever
but it's never quite the end
and so with tears
and pain so real you face
another day
it's got to get better than this
is all you ever say
© Joseph McClellan, 2007
